It started like this:

Kylie stated she was in a good mood tonight, and i replied with, "well i'm not."

She then fought back with, "go bowling or something."

...To which i giggled.

Hmmm. I don't know why, but tonight I'm just not in a good mood. I think it's cause i'm caught up in reflection. Today i sat in class and all {literally all} i could think of was, "did the days used to go this slow?" "Did they really use to be like this?"

I don't know. Maybe it's just the start of the year syndrome, or the annoying hardness of the senior years of high school. I don't know, it just seems everything centered around school these days go slower.

Is it because I'm older, because things are harder, because we're not 'little' anymore?

Who knows.

I continued my bad mood slump tonight when i faced my homework of Chemistry, Maths and Biology and then continued to slump when i stubbed my toe and consequently stacked it down the stairs.

Then i remembered, last night, i woke up at around 1.30am. It was soo hot in my room. I could not go back to sleep and as i lay there i searched for a piece of paper to scribble down these:

"Nothing is ever so dark, that you cannot see anything ahead. Even in the still of night you can still see the little specks of the sun that we so beautifully call stars, you just sometimes have to look for them"

"Searching for answers when your lost is like looking for the stars in the city. They are there, they are just hard to find."

They made me feel better tonight. Don't ask me how i wrote them though, when at 2am, i can barely open my eyes. Sometimes i surprise myself.





Have a lovely night :)